I hate my own doubts
09.25.04 ||| 7:38 pm

I went to my cousin Stefany's house for a party tonight. Her boyfriend is celebrating his birthday as well as getting off probation. Go him.

I called Alfred to tell him where I was and that I would call him once I got home... he was in the car, on his way to the bar...

Probably getting drunk and bringing some slut back to his bed.

Probably.

I hate my thoughts. They like to make me think bad shit is going on.

I tried calling him like 20 mintues ago. His phone is it out range... so I can't get a hold of him. Pretty convenient, no?

Meh.

Why is love such a crazy thing? I'm so afraid that Alfred is going to wander away from me...

Why does love have to hurt like this?

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